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This photo is so interesting!:) Just trying to make things happier!:) haha!:)

Trip tomorrow......

Well, it is June now, and things are so different!! I remember having dreams like this, and thinking that it would never happen. But it is happening, and I can't help asking "WHY"! Each day is bothersome, trying to make them last longer! Tomorrow my parents will go to Jackson and get two opinions from doctors who have dealt with this type cancer. It makes me nervous though, knowing they will be on a plane in a week. That scares mom much more than me, but I still am worrying. I know everything happens for a reason, but sometimes I wonder what that reason is. I always remember a song by Mandisa called "Stronger". The songs main principle is that when life is bringing us down and we finally get back up, we are stronger for the next time. Then when the harsher waves come, they won't be quite as bad. But still, I try to realize that BAD THINGS COULD HAPPEN, but GOD THINGS COULD HAPPEN TOO. So it's a 50/50 chance in my mind. Luckily, the doctors say it's a 95/5 chance with the proper treatment. "What if" always comes to mind, but realizing that there's as many good "what ifs" as there are bad makes me a little calmer. I feel like we have hit a very harsh wave, but I know it's God's way of testing our faith. We just have to believe! Please pray for her, as the prayers are well needed.

Just another day......

I guess the way to describe today is....... JUST ANOTHER DAY....... My friends are coming by today, and I'm excited about that!:) But still, I think it's just another day. I have to wonder if in the near future, one day will be her last.... I hate thinking this way, but I feel like I have to.....

Better Day.......

Today was....well, better. It is still so hard. I just hope everything works out. I am so overwhelmed!:(

Hard day.....

Hmmm. I sit here trying to grasp the whole situation, yet I cannot grasp even one bit of it. Mom has been making phone calls since 9:00, and we aren't sure where she will go for surgery and treatment options, if she will take summer classes, and even the thought of if she will live. Well, I guess I have to look positively. I just don't know how. Why her?

Cancer

We found out today that my mom has cancer. This is very emotional, but we know that God has it in his hands. We just have to trust him. I just find that very hard.:(